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On My Internal Journey
Just a few steps at a time on this journey
Friday 26 September 2014
'When did I become such a bad Muslim?'
Thursday 18 September 2014
Note to Self [2] - Disappointment
Dear The Me Tomorrow,
Disappointment, why is this such a common feeling?
Why do you constantly feel disappointed in yourself and even others? Is there not a point where you should learn to get over the situation and be glad of what is in front of me.
It is not that I am telling you to be happy with everything either, cry your eyes out or moan all you want, but really, why is it so hard for you to say Alhamdulillah and move forward.
Is it not that everything that is ever thrown in your path sent by Allah? Is your faith not strong enough that you cannot accept that all things good and bad are from Allah?
In the moment when you are faced with a disappointment or even a disaster, you never seem to stop and ask myself these questions.
Maybe something does not work out the way you had wished it would, whether that be grades or friendships or something else completely.
When 'what you wanted' does not happen the way you had wanted it to happen, it comes to form this negative lens that every time you attempt to view the world positively, you are thrown into only seeing the darkest corners of life as though everything is falling apart, or you question what have you done to deserve such disappointment.
There comes a point where you just need to suck it up and move on to the next hurdle in life because they are never ending cause surely Allah tests those He loves. If you were to live life without disappointments or hurdles, what reward would there be waiting for you in the hereafter? You have not jumped over obstacles to win yourself a prize at the end.
So a message to the Me Tomorrow, stop complaining about your disappointments, say Alhamdulillah and keep walking on life's path.
Lots of Love,
The Me Today.
Wednesday 3 September 2014
Smiling, Always Smiling.
Saturday 28 June 2014
This Ramadan...
Alhamdulillah that I have come to meet Ramadan again this year, that in itself is a beautiful blessing, I couldn't be more grateful!
When Ramadan comes round each year, there is like this shift in the atmosphere, and in some way it's like I can breathe much more clearer, the nights feel more cooler, and there is so much beauty everywhere.
This post will really be about what I hope to achieve this Ramadan and just simple reminders to myself.
First and most importantly, this month is my fast track lane to getting close to Allah, to put the time and effort into building the connection which if I am completely honest has weakened over the past year.
Since last Ramadan, so much has happened in my life that I cannot begin to make a list of them all in my head. There have been many downs, but each time I have been able to get back up, and I thank Allah for giving me the courage to do so.
I have also noticed that lately I have been filled with such negative emotions, which really just works to be the venom of a person's own body. I need to use this Ramadan to cleanse my mind and get rid of the black scars etched on my heart.
I hope to be forgiven. To start again. To breathe clearer. To love stronger. To be there for others. To never lose hope in Allah. To know my priorities. To smile wider. To be happier. All in all, be a better person In'sha'Allah!
I pray for myself and the Ummah, every person who is suffering, however big or small. I cannot express how glad I am that Ramadan has been granted to me for another year, and I strongly hope that I can make the changes that I couldn't make last year.
Let this month be my new beginning if nothing else!
Thursday 3 April 2014
Note to Self [1]
Dear The Me Tomorrow,
I know right now everything is getting too much, that words have become loud noises clogging your mind, that each deadline being worked towards is not going right. No matter how much you wish for the world around you to quieten down or even shut up, there is no way on Earth that can happen. Do not wish for what cannot happen, but rather what you can make happen.
One thing that resonates well with me is the saying that 'it's just a bad day, not a bad life'. It might happen to be a string of bad days, but it still does not equate to a bad life.
At least you are breathing, right?
Does that not count for a lot?
Well it does, because as long as you keep breathing, you will get to places. Trust me, you will move forward with every backlash, every mental breakdown, because one step back should mean you come back two steps forward fighting.
I am proud of what you have done so far, and do not for a second be angry with yourself, or degrade your future. The future is still open to changes and wonders, don't try to narrow the amount of possibly amazing things you will do. If what you want does not work out, something better will come round - believe that and it will.
You are not the only one fighting this battle, there are numerous people facing the strain just like you. They are coping, so you can too. And more than that, I have faith that you will get through, because think about all the other times, did you not manage it all?
Keep going because I know you have caught sight of the twinkle of light at the end of the tunnel. That is where you are heading, and some part deep down inside knows you can get there soon.
Here's to great things and much less sessions of falling apart.
Lots of Love,
The Me Today.
Tuesday 18 February 2014
{5} Chasing Away The Heavy Heart: EVERYTHING WILL BE OKAY
I did not want to write much for this post. I think the quote above speaks volumes, equivalent to a million words I could end up writing if I wanted to.
It can get hard to visualise that things will get better when everything is far from okay.
Maybe you could save the quote above and put it up as your phone screen saver or background. Just a reminder - that you will be fine, just give it time.
Saturday 15 February 2014
It Is Okay Not To Be Okay.
Sometimes you just need to admit that you are not okay.
It really is okay not to be okay.
Unfortunately sadness does come along. Sometimes unhappiness jumps out from the unlikeliest corners, allowing you in no way to prepare for the worst. Other times you feel it descend on you, slowly weighing you down.
We may shatter into a million pieces, but we can heal. The heavy heart will come but you will need to chase it away.
You cannot expect ease to come unless you actually do something to achieve it. You cannot simply sit around waiting for it (however in some cases that may be the only solution).
I promise you there is one way or another that you can pull yourself out from all the rubble you have found yourself under. I promise.